what a..................hukhuk

hmmm...1st of all...my father just passed his operation n now in healing process, 2nd of all....i just recover from my xcident which is last week where the road are slippery and i just give my bike a nitemare..(xde ah teruk ngat kot)....n now....TONITE,,,..i just made a stupid thing where i will regret it for the rest of my life...if it will be that long....hukhuk...i'm stupidly trying to drive my friend's car n i just make a new xcident's history on my life...n more worst,it's a car n for sure it is not mine....what a damn man.....-not even passed to reverse dat car dowh...shame on me la weh...huh......
actually i've already have tried it before...but tonite i'm just not ready n got xcited n blindly n stupidly to try it again...so,there is the price dat i have to pay la kan....sape suh gatal sangat nak try....go n get the license 1st la sengall....-ayat2 tok diri sndrik.....
sian dowh kete kawan tu....seb baek la xkemek2 nak mampos nyer teruk-kind of bengkokkan die nyer batang at the back of the car..plus the cover rim of that arabic guys's car(luckily they did not claim anything from us)...got to wait n see la how it will be in future kan....i mean...the cost to fix it la...
whatever it is, i really need to master it 1st n then i will try to drive others car....-don't even try it again...i forbid myself to do it so then...till i got the license...
pape pon...i regret this n i will never ever to lost control of myself like tonite again....cmne nak bawak parents jalan naek kete kalo bg 1st impression cmtu....isk...
and for ur information....i still had that some kind of......hmmm....trauma can do kot....to give a ride to other people....but...i try my best la kan to overcome that feeling...so far so good....but after this incident...dont really know it rite now...hukhuk....hope it will be ok soon n i got a hold to make it good....

p/s:actually,i'm working to write something like i always wanted to write since high school...but so far...not relly have a idea to write....